Cold with the Flames

The sand was growing cool with the change of the seasons drawing out of autumn to winter gradually, bare feet making small prints that just joins the hundreds of thousands of others...leading straight to the fire. A strange sight indeed, huddled in the damp cold sand, the only colors standing out being a yellowish orange and ivory that looked more antiqued then the usual brilliant color. The demon, dressed in a silly bumble bee costume, was smoking before the fire that she sat at , head resting on her knee so that her face was hidden under the dark canopy of glossy black hair that danced with highlights painted by the blazing glow of the fire itself. The fingers absently picking at the striped stockings. As always, she was alone, huddled in a silent presence. She pined for love. She ached to be held..need she was plenty, friends, the new family that surrounded her..but she wanted one thing..to be held again. Tightly, wanting to hide herself in someone's arms.

She drew her head up a little, a glimmer of light doing nothing to diminish the intense blue glow. The good eye stares off into the flames and watches it dance. Watches the salamanders feasting on ash. Her only companion. She just sat there in her own little world, lost to her inner thoughts. Those thoughts were wrapped up with her restless emotions. She was greedy, wanting to be someone's, but she never gets it. Never has one to hold her and comfort her but friends and family. The doll comes running from the shadows suddenly and stops, almost tumbling over in its haste to get to the demon's side. Her head turns just barely to look at it and finds herself holding the doll this time. It fit neatly in her lap. It was always with her, hiding from the naked eye...only one has seen it, her god daughter. But she spoke not much on why it was alive..only that she'd had it for a long time.

Her arms wraps around the doll protecting it from the heat cast at her as the salamanders grew with their feast. What she saw in that flame is hard to say. She only just sat there, feeling lost and lonely with heavy eyes. She was exhausted, fighting herself and so many others...Inspite the family and friends, she was utterly on her own. She did what she had to and now her lids just grew heavy as the one eye stared off into the dancing blaze of orange and yellows to sink into the white blaze where it was hottest, loosing herself to her thoughts while she sat there thinking. Thinking of several things...

Has the World Gone Mad or Just Me?

She stood there talking to someone she'd not seen in a long time, the man looking at her. Seeing the confusion in his eyes and then uncertainty. Shea didn't seem to know what to think when he found out that this small demon was the same that use to run around with plaid shirts and shorts, scuffed up knees and dorky nerd glasses. A true little hick in the beginning. Now, he sees this small dark being. The comment about her being a walking shadow made her shiver within and had laughed to hide her own nervousness.

It was a tickle at first, in her head, and then a familiar masculine voice speaking to her. Sieran checking up on her after he had gotten the seals in place fully once more. She wasn't expecting to get anything further out of him but suddenly she feels the pull, her old sire summoning her like she was some minion to do his bidding.

Not wanting the pain it brought when ignoring a summoning like that, she arrives before him in silence, kneeling at his feet as she would Vulcan, respecting her old mentor and once sire..


Sieran: Does the power of the old seals feel well?

Nerissa tips her head as she looks up to him when she comes at his summoning and shrugs. " I itch..but I blame the healin' on it." She flashes a smile.

Sieran: Good

Sieran: I'm glad they've taken root

Nerissa glances around, curious of her surroundings. "Its not gonna innterfer with my magicks is it?" She turns to him.

Sieran: If those neko's get in my way again I will rip their ears and tails off

Sieran: It will only protect and increase your magic

Sieran: My left arm is as you see a Steel replacement

Nerissa sighs and nods. "I've already gone off on them about bein' overly protective...they caused me to take a savage blow last night to another demon that had captured me."
Sieran: What happened?

Nerissa looks at him and frowns. "I coulda replaced it, Sieran. Its what I do..I don't need that stuff ya had made and gave me.."

Nerissa shrugs. "There was a demon that had collared one of my students..I grew angry and went after him..and lost in battle. " [[I hate my wireless. The damn macro keys I had set don't work.}}

"He had no intention of doin' further damage, only bound me..but the kiddies got doubly defensive to see me in a state..When they attacked he landed a blow that hit hard. " She further explains.

Sieran holds up his left arm a glowing spheare floating above the metal hand "The demons of this world are weak when they lose this..."

Nerissa had looked away, attracted by the cawing, and turns back as if reacting to the feel of something released. She looks at the sphere. "..That is...what? " She asks.

Sieran: It is what makes a demon a demon...Most demons take the body of a human to do horrid actions againist the world that curses them..others come from the rift as full demons but not many humans can see their true form without burning out their eyes and dying

Sieran: But for those who come through the rift and embark on a quest to spawn more of their children..This essence is what keeps them linked to their realm...And without it they turn to ash in both realms...As if they never were there

Sieran: Rather interesting when you have a enchanted arm able to rip this out of a pure demon and hold them hostage...

Sieran smiles "But I feel no love for their kind as you know my job has been to protect the humans that dwell in this world even if they are stupid meat bags..." laughs as he crushs the orb in his hand a flash of light and then only dust remains

Sieran: I had to find the right place to test my skills as a seal master

Sieran: So I provoked a demon to bring me to their plain

Nerissa nods slowly as her eye remains on it. "....We are different..that makes us unique makes us ..stronger.." She says quietly, looking down at his words that makes her shiver. "Will ya kill me for bein' a demon?..Even if I gotta soul?.."

Sieran: You were human once

Sieran: Turned Vampire then a demonic essence forced into your shell

Sieran: But not a vampire..Something much greater

Sieran: You were a Crusnik

Sieran: You smelled like a human and looked like one

Nerissa nods again, still with gaze down cast. " But I was already dead long before ya embraced me..that lil pocket my soul was stuck in makin' my body a walkin' mass of energy.."

Sieran: Again..You were taken in by a monster that mankind made to destroy all that faced them

Sieran: Your powers grew but now they are gone..

Nerissa looks over quickly.

"..Say again?.." She says.

Sieran: You think you need to feed but your need to feed was only for battle..

Sieran: When you thought I was a true vampire you fed and fed

Sieran: It is true I can bare my fangs and use magic..but I'm a monster...And your powers from your life as a crusnik are gone..

Sieran: Don't look so shocked you gave them up when you became a Demon

"But..I still feel the desire to feed off blood. Not off souls..sensual energies...I want blood.." She frowns but then nods again. " I know."

Sieran: You've tricked yourself into thinking blood is what you need

Sieran: But within blood you can drain the soul of another if not fully but only a tad..Just enough to not notice

Sieran: There are many things at work in this world and the many others..

Nerissa crosses her arms and looks away, gazing across the trees. She turns and suddenly jerks up her jacket, baring her flat, obsidian stomach. " Then what is this?!" She asks and shoves her arm into the flesh that gives like putty.

Sieran: Why don't you ask your father?

Nerissa pulls out the vial that holds what's left of the healing elixor given to her by her sire long ago, held onto preciously, she holds it to him, arm covered with frost to her elbow.

Sieran: And what is that?



Nerissa sighs. "My father is dead. Like my mother, Sieran..Remember?" She looks at it and holds it to him. "Ya gave it to me..ya had some gyspsies make it when ya were huntin' malks a long time ago..."

Sieran: You've held onto it this long

"This is where I keep..things.." She lays her free hand on the belly, a shimmer around it aglow, raw arcanum at her fingertips just wanting to be used. "This is what makes me cold..not because I'm a demon..or was dead flesh at one point.."

Nerissa looks up at him and nods. "I kept everything...even the doll I tried to put my soul into.."

Sieran places his gauntlet againist your belly "You will feel warmth in here soon..a child"

Sieran grins

Nerissa says quietly, "Every lil thing ya ever gave me..I've kept close as I could to me..the books.." She frowns and slaps his hand away. " There's never gonna be a birth outta me!"

Sieran: There will be in 8 hours you will have a seed

Nerissa looks appalled suddenly and shakes her head, refusing to believe. "No. I will never let myself get pregnant, Sieran. I've been on the strongest of birth control since I joined the coven.."

Sieran: In time you will see

Sieran: As for my child..

Sieran: I plan to sever all ties to him..

Sieran: I cannot let one of his blood live

Sieran: So I shall cripple or kill him
Sieran: One or the other..Depends on my mood

Nerissa Dae shock hits her, making her dark face ashen. "Nicholas? No! Yer not killin' my lil brother!" She snaps waspishly wtih tears in her eyes. " And I'm never gonna get pregnant! Ya hear me! Never!!" she screams before she runs through the Veil to run from madness and her own anger and fear.

The doll come scrambling out from under the lab table where it had been sitting most the day. She just told them it was her's from a very long time, which was true from one that couldn't lie. Yet never spoke about what the doll actually was or represented. It only come running when Nerissa had come storming back inside from having been celebrating the defeat of the latest monster attacks. She was boiling mad, the ebony features twisted in anger. Bato had been outside, talking to them, her playfully bantering about payment for helping heal him several times during battle. But her god daughter had spoken rudely to the werewolf and she had done something never before thought possible. She had backhanded her own daughter for the behavior shown and then stormed off to fight the boiling anger within her.

It danced around the demon's feet. It tried to offer calm soothing words to her. Tried to remind her of people who loved her. The doll held up a small skull that use to belong to a bird. She looks at it and a smile breaks as she can't help but laugh as she lowers herself to the floor of the lab to usher her poppet to her lap. " I get the picture, lil one.." She tells it and tsks as she fixes the doll's dress and checks for cracks. It wouldn't do well if her baby broke. The bones inside were irreplaceable and what created the doll even harder to replicate. She stroked the curls that dangled around the face that looked so much like her long ago, the auburn locks still shiny, her own hair carefully fed into the scalp area. Her pride and joy this one is.

The demon sighs and leans against the wall behind her tiredly, a familiar presence in the back of her mind, speaking softly to her. Her lips smiles for a moment then she closes her eyes to fall asleep, looking more like a doll herself once the mind turns inward and shuts off the outside world.

The Eight Seals of Binding

She woke up finally, feeling as if her chest was stomped on, her heart as if it had been squeezed. In fact, it had taken a serious blow, Sieran's unexpectant attack to set the last one leaving her screaming and spilling a grand amount of blood to the library floor. What felt a nightmare was reality and it come to hit her the next day with a heavy fist to the gut.

All the seals she had erected to bind the darkness within her. A means to keep herself safe and sane, so she thought, and she had shattered them all in a blaze of single minded hatred to the one that betrayed the Coven. As soon as she heard what Lysander had done, she didn't think. She only reacted. The demon tearing through all she had created and slammed into his mind with a twisted mind of revenge.

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Nerissa Dae 's mind slams into his psyche with a snarl. "What are you doing fool!" she screams.

Lysander Demonge winces at the impact of her mind forcing it's way into his. Ignoring her petty inquiry he slams shut the walls of his mind, lacing the rejection with a wave of pain for her efforts.

Nerissa Dae can be felt slamming against it, her drug induced mind making her attackes harder and more intense as she barely puts anything behind them but inhuman anger. The demon comes to the foreground, rising out of the depths with a vengenous. There comes a bain sidhe's screech, ear shattering and mental if she breaks through his shields.

Lysander Demonge doubling over from the furious assault, the screem of a thousand harpies echoing in his mind, he dips into Hell's seemingly endless reservoir of power, hurling every inch of it he could draw at the witch in the form of incredible heat. Collapsing from the effort, he crawls to the nearest chair, propping his back against it.

Nerissa Dae doesn't let up. Madness taking, the demon never before reacted in such a manner in the naked eye. There's nothing sane in the mind that assails his defensive ways, a brutal wash of cold madness exploding and beating at anything to render his mind useless if she gets that far.

Lysander Demonge slams his defensive wall back into place, only to have it broken again. "WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT WITCH, LEAVE ME TO MY MISERY" he roars, so loud in his own mind that waves of pain and nausea beat at his skull.

Nerissa Dae screams, a thousand piercing cries heard, "You have betrayed your family." She snarls as she slams into his mind with what she hopes will feel like spikes.

Lysander Demonge deciding this one is far too powerful to block out entirely, he quickly changes tactics, reverting to that faithful demonic character so common in his kind. Wincing from the assault but not showing any signs otherwise, he softens his voice to a penetrating, pompous tone. "Did your sister enjoy my gift? I wore her you know, like a condom at homecoming. I can still feel her wrapped around me, crying in agony. I can still taste her tears, sssssalty and ssssorrowful...." he hisses at the last.


Nerissa Dae gives no indication of haulting, no notice to the change over coming him. She howls and there's a shift in her own persona. That what made her Shadow. That what made her Vulcan's favorite pet. The demoness utters something unintelligable and a lashing of razors comes from her mind, as if she wants to slice his brain from the inside out. There's a white nova of blinding hatred that pulses and she laughs without warning. "I have no sister you fool. I have no mother. I have no father. No brother. I am only me and you will fall before me ." says the icy hiss so unlike the odd tone of Neri's normal tone.


Lysander Demonge grins in delight, feeling a kindred spirit. Relishing in the wave of cutting pain, he embraces her mind. "I remember you.....Nerissa.....you were a Shadow....." he says softly. "You are one of the witches now? I can't fathom why......I beg forgiveness for my brash behaviour my kindred, please, leave that foul den of goodness and light, come and walk with me in the darkness." Closing his eyes, he runs hands over his skin, reveling in her aura of evil presence. "I long for a companion such as you....honor me with your dark beauty.....Nerissa....".

Nerissa Dae 's wards have been destroyed, the darkeness welling up, the unnatural essence that makes up her entire being, a kiss of such power she holds within her like a living vessel. She laughs at him, mocking him. There is no baiting her, she doesn't seek power, that is clear in her mind. If her hands had touched him physically, those cold little hands would sear flesh from him and slop up his spilt blood. She is lost to the sensations on seems to move around him even in spirit. A shadowy form...dark..insubstantial but for those icy blue eyes that seem to look through him. A huntress. A predator that could snuff him any minute if she wanted to.

Lysander Demonge kneels, still feeling her awe-inspiring power overwhelming him. He lets it wash over him without any attempt to hinder her. Smiling knowingly, he replies, slow and steady. "I know what you think, you look at me as a pitiful little thing, seeking to gain some measure of strength and power. Know this isn't so. I am quite aware you could end me without so much as a twitch, and I care little." Tilting his head back, he opens his mind wider. "I am also aware that my paltry words hold no temptation for you, but you are also aware that your place is not WITH those pathetic witches and their silly spellbooks. Don't you tire of mending possessions, petty drama and any number of other meaningless endeavours? I am sated with who and what I am. I am a demon, not powerful, nor am I weak.....what I do have to offer is an intelligent mind, something the masses of this pathetic city lack. You can deny all you like, but you know this for truth." Nodding contentedly he finishes. "Do as you will....Nerissa."

Lysander Demonge: "I will not attempt to sway you any further."

Nerissa Dae remains circling him, in his mind, her own is total chaos. She holds no sign of humanity now that she had always shown. The compassion she held for him and desire to see him be something. Now, she is along hatred that surrounds him utterly in a cold blanket. " I am neither demon nor angel. I am myself. I am that which is not alive nor dead. You have nothing I want. You are nothing but a fool child.." her words, soft hisses as it seems she literally stands beside him. She carries with her a strength that shows she gets what she wants. "Knowledge is power. Power is not what I seek. I seek to know. To weld. You have caused me to show myself and this doll will forever remember. " Comes her voice, an icey softness this time catching. Something brushes against the dark essence and then it comes to the physical side of him, as if those talons traces over his sculpted body before she jerks away with a peal of laughter.


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She had left his mind and escaped into her own darkness, lost. The following hours had soon been spent to try and reestablish these seals and weak, she managed to make it through the next day fairly safe if not still feeling in a state of utter hatred and thirsting to inflict pain. The night was spent manning the booth for the faire, a perfect distraction and a chance to work to maintain her unsettling darkness by wrestling with those that come to try their strength against the small demoness. Enjoyed even losing, she would laugh every time Wollen, one of the Ryders, managed to get her down. Her excuse was that she was exhausted and just grins at him savagely, dressed in but a bikini top and baggy shorts, smelling of the goo that was inside the cauldron below that most losers would of been pushed into.

Perhaps the lack of sleep or just something had brought her to this point that she sought out her sire, Sieran. Though no longer vampire, she regarded him thus still her sire and mentor, as were many others have taught her. They worked to reinstate the wards, though his were only temporary, having to loose her eye so he could place a blood stone into it which held one of the seals to bind her. Another would be placed on her pelvis, another around her throat and thus followed until the last one was put into her heart itself. He didn't have to be there to do it. She was lost to the darkness by then, in the library and ranting at it to show her where the Book of Seals were. Desperation led from madness and books were thrown carelessly as she ripped one after another from the shelf at the time.

It was not until Joah and Hadyn come that prevented her from destroying the books completely. Reaching for the shelf itself, she was readying to pull it down on them both in her enraged mind wanting to send them away, but Hadyn and snatched her wrist, swollen already and healing from a fracture caused earlier when she had angered Sieran. Now, it was gripped tight to get her attention and then as something cold was slapped into her palm and sealed between her flesh and his, she could only feel the biting pain of something burning before the pain hit her chest as well as Sieran's last seal was slammed into her beating heart. A screech flew from her lips before the blood erupted. Even she had never seen so much come spewing out of her mouth to rain down on the floor and scattered books, and then blackness as all the seals flared to life and she fell to the floor into unconsciousness. She doesn't remember Hadyn picking her up like a child and carrying her back to the shop, or the others trying to heal her heart and soul. Only to her, was sweet oblivion...

The Second Path

The vantage point wasn't the best. But it left her hidden mostly in its shadows, all but the curl of ivory topping her skull, the glow of her large blue eyes intense and paler then more. A pale shape of ashen skin illuminated under the sad moon. She leaned against the wall and looked out across the roof tops with her mind everywhere but where she was looking. At her feet stood a doll. A perfect copy, that hide in the folds of her gown. It looked up at her, a small tug that did little to distract the demon from her thoughts. What do we do, the doll asks, and she only shrugs as her face remained as immobile as the miniature of herself. It doesn't matter. Let it go. They can only break a shell now. The reply made the doll burrow into her skirt once more. The tail slips around the doll protectively. Keep it safe. This is what the demon told the doll. It lifts its face to her's, glass eyes just as intense and sparkling with life. Again there's a tug and this time she turns her gaze down as the doll come out and twirled on the roof top away from the edge. It is cold tonight. She tries to smile but it seems she forgot how to and only nods. "Winter, my little one." the demon replies and turns to kneel down to the doll's level. It asks if she can feel it. The demon slowly shaking her head as she brushes the curls away. No...she did not feel it now. The cold. The warmth of another's body. A suitable sacrifice. No more that will distract her from her duty. They will realize too late what she had down, and the demon leaves the doll to stand while she rolls over and stretches out over the dirty roof carelessly to stare up into the cloudy night sky. The doll watches her and finally comes to sit beside the demon, curled up close as a pet would. She took notice how warm it was but for her, the curiosity she may of felt one wasn't there. She knew this but at the same time, the demon realized she didn't care. It just was. "I will make you a beautiful bed to sleep in." She told the doll. It wanted to know why and she stared up, gazing around at the stars, with no answer. She hears another question asked and then does she look over, a single tear coming from the outer corner of her eye to rain down into her hairline. She smiles to it and turns away.

Giving Up..

She lowers herself to the wet sand and sits, not caring if her robe soaked in the dampness and covered with sand. Sitting and staring off across the water with her chin propping up her chin as her eyes burned again with unshed tears. For once, she was having a good night and all it took was one short conversation that brought her where she would be alone. Her god daughter already left or just disappeared and she'd left Haven with her heart in her throat.

Twice today she'd caused problems and never had any intention..it was okay for them to be nasty to her..her eyes drops down and she starts to unbuckle her boots then redoes them slowly up again with shaky fingers. More and more her heart is telling her to leave this retched city and escape all that hurts her. But where would she go?...Closing her eyes, she sighs heavily and tries to clear her mind before they could spill. She's better off alone..more and more..she finds this better. No more will get mad at her. Nor will she anger anyone else. Just disappear into sweet oblivion.

Lifting a hand up, she rubs at her eyes and then lets her sleeve slide over her face before dropping it to her lap as she stretches her legs out to dig out her collar. She looks at it and works it around her neck, a new tag on it hanging down that she tucks up to hide from prying eyes. Its time to give up and just accept it. She's a loser. She'll always be one. Just like her sire said..a door mat, letting everyone walk over her. She deserves it...she doesnt' belong in the coven. She doesn't belong anywhere..with anyone..she's a loser that doesn't deserve to be happy.

Will I Always Be Alone?

Sitting there, watching how the moon ripples over the wave. The deep heaving sigh is silent but it stirs her hair when she lets it expel from her lips. Her god daughter beside her now out of the blue, she hides under the fall of her dark pitch black curls so that the streaks don't shown over her cheeks where makeup had run. She talks of wanting to be a necromancer...the demon can only surmise she wishes this to bring them back. Sometimes, there's a reason that people die..sometimes its better that they're dead..She feels a well up of anger as she thinks of people, those she lost. Those she never got to know and wanted to desperately...She knew why her god daughter wanted to be a necromancer and that she for one didn't agree to it. They spoke for a little and then she leaves so that once again left her alone.

Each time, she can only think of her aingeal. There's an ache inside. A hollow spot that seems to get bigger and bigger the more he is away from her. Her eyes begin to burn again and she tries not to think about him. About anyone. Its time to stop loving. Stop caring so much. Its time for her heart to grow cold and turn to her darker side perhaps.

A distraction. This is what Neri needed. She turns her thoughts inside out and realizes she hears her Sisters talking from somewhere behind her and works her way carefully off the cold metal railing to make her way around front, seeking them out..seeking out company, a distraction. The thoughts that plague her and she finds herself with no one to talk to nor does she wish to talk to anyone about these worries that plague her.

Its times like this that she wishes she had the book. Demonicus seemed to tug at her like a drug to one fiends for some hard shit. She wishes he'd stop toying with her. She did what she was told to do. She does everything she's ordered but for what? His latest communication left her heart wedged in her throat. Just thinking about it left her dizzy and confused. He'd given her a few hours, atleast until he returned, to decide how she wanted her 'gift' to be given and each time she thinks about it she's left lost and uncertain. She craved. Hunger flaring up inside her and steeling her breath. He had not many questions. They were more like demands and she knew he'd not listen if she didn't think well on his offers. She accepted them though, willingly, a pack that she laid out in a verbal agreement and now she can only wait and see what will happen.

For now, all she can do is fight not to weep over her aingeal. Feeling cold inside and out anymore. Lost in an endless sea of coldness that bathes her in its icy blanket and feel as if she's drowning.

How many days has it been? Since she watches her take her last breath. Now, she finds herself with a young woman, her god daughter, and left feeling even more confused and uncertain. How does one take care of another as a mother when they had no mother to learn from? She worries that she will do something and loose her precious lil one. Suyuan near a spitting image of her mother, it tears at her heart each time she looks at the girl.

The flooding leaves so many ill and her own sister's life is like a fire that gasps for oxygen as the water rises around her, the elementalist fighting to survive in this wet city. It tears at the demon's heart and soul, it makes her afraid of losing more. She sends one to the Pit to fetch lava. Part task..part demand..more need then anything. It was nearly botched from that wretched cat. The initiate's quest botched and making the demon livid with anger. Were this one to die in his task, there's without a doubt that this demon would very well kill this cat that pisses her off to no end..

Her mind wanders often and then turns to the demon in the cell, the grey skin glistening with just not persperation but with the demon's own blood. She looks at her and watches before she's told what to do. There was no delight in causing the pain. She did it because she had to. She did it to show something. She did it...to take her frustrations out on. A demon she did not know..to a demon that did not know her..such livid pain this small demon did inflict. With neither smile nor frown. An angel's pale face and ruby painted lips. This demon did much damage to that one.

What was so wrong..was that that demon was innocent all the time. She knew deep in her mind for she was there the entire time. Saw who was at fault. Yet never a word did she say. Not a word did she give away who was the blame. This demon breaking the larger with soft whispered questions. To confess to a crime she did not do...this was done to ease the pain of loosing her Mei...

Now, she sits. Perched above the door like a living statue of an angel of death, her skeletal features shadowed softly under the dark curls of her hair falling around her face. She sits there and watches. The puddles that still stand after the water is gone down. The green tint stagnant soon enough to make her dizzy and ill. Her Family gathered around as always to watch over one another. This she is greatful for.

With a sigh, she sits. Sits on the stone. Barely a breath taken as she watches. Watches the city.

R.I.P. Mei - My soul sister - My Dear Lil One

She sits there on the large chaise lounger, watching the small figure sleeping, her own eyes still puffy and red from the heavy tears she had to fight since the night before. Her heart ached, and the demon tried so hard to appear brave for her 'lil one'. Neri adjusted the blanket over her god daughter's sleeping form, to keep her safe...to keep her dry..to watch over her. The demon tried not to see the girl's mother in her face but too much Suyuan was the spitting image of her dearest and most beloved of friends of late, the memory of the night tearing at her again most severely..It was times like this she yearned for her aingeal. Needing him..but..alas, he was not there for her and she would curl herself up against the head of the lounger, curling carefully around her sleeping daughter's form protectively while her memories haunted her.

One would think that the water wouldn't bother her but old fears still clung to Nerissa. She stood, more then half submerged in the flood waters, and waited after the call she got to meet up with her dearest friend. So caught up in her thoughts, it took a moment to realize that the one that came to her was her Mei.

Anjia Chuzen smiles weakly as she stumbles against Neri, "Hi there." Nerissa looked utterly shocked at the feelings rolling off her dear friend. "It doesn't seem to hurt anymore..." Mei speaks in a quiet tone that made her heart twist up in her chest.

Nerissa Dae turns a solemn face to her friend with worry etched in her eyes. She opens her arms to her, near begging. "..I find that highly unlikely.." she whispers.

"In fact it doesn't hurt at all." The Ryder looks up at her before collasping against Neri. "Help me into the garage."

Nerissa Dae moves foward quickly and grabs ahold of her with a soft whimper, nodding.

She helped her, nearly carried her back to her parents' garage, thinking about the phone call, hearing that Dime had killed Halleon. "I wanna be there... for the last time." Mei whispered to her.

Anjia Chuzen smiles weakly, "Hi Lei..." She looks up, seeing the small lycan entering, bristling instantly but keeping her silence for her Mei's sake. "Come to see me off?" she asked Lei.

SahngLei Xue greets Mei, " hello "

SahngLei Xue: i came to join you

Anjia Chuzen slips Neri a piece of paper.

"And even if it did it would just be too late anyways" Neri looks confused now, pale blue eyes darting to both before she frowns a little bit as she looks to Mei, feeling dizzy.

There was a moment of shock as she lifts her head...she had actually fainted..the shock of her friend talking of suicide..all she could do, that moment, was listen to the two talk..

Anjia Chuzen: Poison?
SahngLei Xue shrugs
SahngLei Xue points to the vials on her tail
Anjia Chuzen: I'm already very, very sick due to the water.
Anjia Chuzen: Hrm.... that's could work.
SahngLei Xue: i could strangle you to death
SahngLei Xue: drown you
Anjia Chuzen: Erm...
Nerissa Dae looks at them both, frowning more.
SahngLei Xue: slice your head off
Anjia Chuzen: Something peaceful please.
SahngLei Xue: up to you
SahngLei Xue: there are many choices
Anjia Chuzen: Poison will do.
SahngLei Xue hands her one of the vials
SahngLei Xue: that one
Neverliska Klossovsky huffs and groans as she runs up, the toxic water dripping off her.
SahngLei Xue: and for me....i need silver

Anjia Chuzen accepts it as she lifts it, as she peers at it curiously, "What is it?"
Anjia Chuzen: And will it work?
Seto Kitsumoto (Dimitri Matova) shakes hirself, letting the water peal off hir in a controlled way
SahngLei Xue: "Its a deadly poison derived from a root...im not sure what exactly its called but yes it know it will work"
Anjia Chuzen: So what's your damage? Why do you want to do this?"
SahngLei Xue: "i just do"
Neverliska Klossovsky doesn't bother shaking as she moves up closer to her mother, her eyes flicking over to the vial in Mei's hands before looking at her Mother. "What... what are you doing..."

SahngLei Xue: "Im helping mei and she is gonna help me"
Anjia Chuzen: There has to be a good reason.
Nerissa Dae folds her lips together as she stands there while tears stream down her cold cheeks.
SahngLei Xue doesnt look at her daughter just stares at mei "And do you have something silver aroubd here?"
Seto Kitsumoto (Dimitri Matova) tilts hir head as shi looks to hir mother with dimmed eyes and then to hir sister before shi finally focuses on hir mother again
SahngLei Xue: "If so could you widdle it sharp for me?"
Neverliska Klossovsky growls and stops her foot as she hears the word silver. "You just going to give up you life that easily because someone threw mean words at you!'
Anjia Chuzen: I believe so.

Anjia Chuzen: I'm certain I could find something among my jewelry.
SahngLei Xue: "Yes" she hissed at never "I cannot take it anymore all anyone ever has for me is harsh words and dumb jokes im sick of it!!!"
Anjia Chuzen: I believe we may have silver nitrate.
Anjia Chuzen frowns as she arches a brow at Lei, "You're killing yourself over mean words?"
SahngLei Xue: yea
SahngLei Xue: so what
SahngLei Xue: whats it to you
Neverliska Klossovsky clenches her paws into fists. "Then leave the city! Don't end your fucking life! that's just a cowards way out! And you aren't a coward!"
Seto Kitsumoto (Dimitri Matova) shivers and breaks a tear at the mentioning of silvernitrate as shi turns to hir sister with a vague whimper
Nerissa Dae bows her head as she draws something to her hands. "Fuckin' children..." she mutters.
SahngLei Xue: whats it to anyone
Anjia Chuzen: I dunno... thought you might have a better excuse.
SahngLei Xue: nope
Anjia Chuzen: Like divorced, two father figures dead.
Anjia Chuzen: Struggling to look at a child who you wish you could give everything too.
SahngLei Xue: im divorced i have no place within my family my sister killed herself and my pet ran away
SahngLei Xue: what more do i need?
Anjia Chuzen: You sure you want to do this?
SahngLei Xue: look
SahngLei Xue: dont ask me why
SahngLei Xue: i just want to
Neverliska Klossovsky growls as she flattens her ears. "I guess the children you adopted are of no value to you. How many times have you put me in this position!?"
SahngLei Xue: if thats alright with everyone
Anjia Chuzen shrugs, "All right."
SahngLei Xue: right make me feel worse
SahngLei Xue: go ahead
SahngLei Xue: it will all be over soon anyways
Neverliska Klossovsky stops her foot. "I will! Until you get it through your head that we don't want you to go and actually care about you! You and your thin as air skin!"
Anjia Chuzen shrugs as she turns towards the work bench and begins rummaging through the drawers for a few moment before she finds a small container and hands it to Lei.
Anjia Chuzen: This is silver nitrate.
Anjia Chuzen: We put in our bullets when we wanna kick your asses.
SahngLei Xue takes it and holds it close
SahngLei Xue: what do i do with it?
Seto Kitsumoto (Dimitri Matova) begins to whimper vaguely as shi holds onto Nev's shirt gently
Anjia Chuzen: Eh, drinking it will make be really painful.
Anjia Chuzen: Here...
Anjia Chuzen hands her a bullet.
Anjia Chuzen: There is silver nitrate in there.
Anjia Chuzen: Just load it into your gun.
SahngLei Xue: i was told this stuff only hurts us it wont kill us
Anjia Chuzen: And shoot yourself.
SahngLei Xue: i need pure silver spike or something
Neverliska Klossovsky growls again, her body shaking. "Ya know what... I'm sick of your shit. I'm glad you aren't my birth mother. She would have so much more power than you! Emotionally and physically! You are neither!" turns to looks at Seto and holds him. "Come, I don't want you to watch that creature kill itself..."
Nerissa Dae moves foward and grabs Mei's shoulder as she holds out a hand full of bullets. "Take these..the bullets themselves are silver and filled with liquid silver..they've been spelled for a painless death.." she says through tears.
bundy Razor's eyes suddenly widen at hearing " shoot urslef"
SahngLei Xue shrugs not caring anymore
Neriss's voice breaks when she speaks, "I've no use for them, my sire made them for me.."
Anjia Chuzen gestures as towards Lei as she hands them towards her.
Seto Kitsumoto (Dimitri Matova) whines a bit as shi watches Lei, seemingly stunned
Anjia Chuzen: Never thought we'd be doing this together.
Anjia Chuzen chuckles softly.
Anjia Chuzen: And was that Dev I just saw?
SahngLei Xue holds out a hankerchief to catch them in
SahngLei Xue: Who cares
"...Mei...I don't want ya to go.." It was all she could do not to slap Mei, Neri's face streaking with wet tears.
bundy Razor turns to mei
Anjia Chuzen: I've lost my pillars of strength...
bundy Razor just realised she's tryna kill herself
Anjia Chuzen: I'm sorry.
Nerissa blurts out, "I can't loose anymore..Coran..now you..and all those before you.."
Neverliska Klossovsky growls and flattens her ears, picking Seto up again, this time holding him as if he were a child and walks farther out of the garage and back out into the water. "Come on.... I won't make you see that... I thought I saw you die... I won't volunteerly watch someone else I care about do it to themselves because they are weak."
bundy Razor: mei??
bundy Razor: is this a joke??
Anjia Chuzen: No Bundy...
Anjia Chuzen: I suggest you walk away..
Anjia Chuzen: This won't be pretty.
SahngLei Xue: please everyone leave us
bundy Razor: Hell no!
Seto Kitsumoto (Dimitri Matova) is lifted but doesn't resist in anyways as shi's pulled away, only hir maw was open
SahngLei Xue: mei
SahngLei Xue: i want to admit something to you right now
SahngLei Xue: before its too late
Nerissa Dae 's lip tremble and snaps. "I could take your soul, Mei! I could take you before you die..and you will never rest!"
bundy Razor's eyes fill with tears " things are just adding up...that sux"
Anjia Chuzen ignores Neri as she perks her ears at Lei.
Anjia Chuzen: Say it.

SahngLei Xue: deep down ive always loved you like a sister but my stubborn pride would never allow me to tell you
SahngLei Xue: well till now
Anjia Chuzen chuckles dryly, "I guess I had some feeling for you too."
Nerissa Dae casts her eyes down to the dirty floor and touches her stomach.
Anjia Chuzen: Now we go down together.
Anjia Chuzen: Neri...
SahngLei Xue nods
Anjia Chuzen: Do me a favor.
Anjia Chuzen: Watch over Suyuan.
bundy Razor sniffs looking at the pack
Anjia Chuzen: Tell her I went to go be with her two grandfathers.
bundy Razor wipes her tears " your going no where mei"
Anjia Chuzen: Do you at least want to say goodbye to Wotan and Draven?
SahngLei Xue: no
SahngLei Xue: i dont
Nerissa Dae gives her nothing but silence now, tears running down her face now heavily.
SahngLei Xue: i dont want to say bye to anyone
SahngLei Xue: and i dont want anyone to find my body
SahngLei Xue: thanks for the bullets
SahngLei Xue: ill go somewhere and hide to finish the job
Anjia Chuzen nods as she lifts the veil concealing her face and she pops off the top to the vial, "A toast... to happier times." she throws her head back and her lips touch the brim of the vial before she quickly swallows it.
Anjia Chuzen: *the liquid
bundy Razor grabs mei by the arm crying hard and shaking her " your not going anywhere" yelling
bundy Razor looks at the demon not doing anything
SahngLei Xue watches mei drink what she knows to be the most deadly poison known to man and winces
Nerissa Dae throws her arms around her without warning, grabbing Mei as she starts to cry harder.
Anjia Chuzen: How long will this take?
SahngLei Xue: 3 minutes tops
SahngLei Xue: you should feel very sick like the flu then fade to a sleep
SahngLei Xue: or atleast i was told
Anjia Chuzen she begins to feel weak slightly as she collapses back into Neri, her head spinning.
SilverLeaf Zabaleta watches from the street, in shock
bundy Razor falls on her knees pulling on mei's skirt screaming and cryng hard " Noooo!"
Anjia Chuzen blinks back tears, "I'm sorry you guys..."
SahngLei Xue: "Oh but she isnt the only im next"
SahngLei Xue: "only noone will find me or see mine"
Anjia Chuzen: Awwww,,,
Anjia Chuzen: I was hoping... we could... go down... together...
SahngLei Xue looks back to mei as she leans to brush the hair back from her face "Sleep mei, shhhh just rest now"
Nerissa Dae shakes her head. "No..yer not. Ya wouldn't be doin' this! For fuck sake! I let my father torture me!!! I can't even keep a man...what the fuck!"
Anjia Chuzen slips further into Neri's embrace as she slips down to her side on the floor, "I don't feel so good."
She didn't know what to do anymore but bawl..a demon reduced to tears, her heart twisting in her chest and all she can do is cling to Mei "I'll never have children..." she says, in thought, she couldn't say, 'and now you won't be here to see when..if that day came..to see me finally swollen with life..'
Nerissa Dae draws Mei tightly to her and buries her face in her hair, freezing breath sinking through.
Anjia Chuzen murmurs, "Yes... you do now..."
Anjia Chuzen: Suyuan is your daughter now.
Nerissa Dae sobs quietly now.
bundy Razor screams loud " nooo"
Birch Devin stares in horrified confusion
bundy Razor buries her face in her hands
Anjia Chuzen: Tell her... I would rather kill my own weak spirit... to give her a stronger one.
Anjia Chuzen grips her stomach as she begins to slip in and out of consciousness and she begins to hallucinate, singing softly in Mandarin.
SahngLei Xue nods
SahngLei Xue: almost there
SahngLei Xue: about a minute now
Nerissa Dae leans down and quickly sweeps her arm under the billows of fabric to pick Mei up, clinging to her as she starts to cry harder.
bundy Razor crawls towards mei wraping her hand in hers sniffing " mei..u not leaving...u always there..." sobs
Nerissa Dae starts to pitifully whimper until a demonic sobbing is heard...
Anjia Chuzen: Guys don't cry... I'm happy now...
Anjia Chuzen lifts her arms as she seems to be reaching for someone, "Coran... father..."
Birch Devin shakes her head "I dont understand whats going on,... but I dont want to lose you either Mei, there hasnt been enough time to know you"
SahngLei Xue loads the gun with a silver bullet carefully using the hankerchief as a guide and covers for her hands
Nerissa Dae shakes her head as she grips her tighter, pressing her lips softly to Mei's face.
Anjia Chuzen: I'm coming...
SahngLei Xue cocks the gun so the bullet releases into the chamber readying it
SahngLei Xue sighs and points the gun to her head
bundy Razor reaches her hand up attempting to stop the pack from shooting herself
SahngLei Xue growls
Birch Devin looks to the were
bundy Razor screams " no!"
The demon whispers through her tears, "..I will never forgive ya, Mei..I love you and I will never forgive ya for leavin' me.."
SahngLei Xue: "It has to be done"
SilverLeaf Zabaleta crys quietly walking up to bundy, "No Lei, it doesn't"
Anjia Chuzen eyes flutter close as her breathing grows shallow, her last words being uttered as her hearing ceases, her pulse slowing as her heartbeat ends and she utters one last sigh before she expires.
Draven Piek ear twitches nerviously
Nerissa Dae utters a piercing, bain sidhe scream. Tearing from her throat as her body arches in anguish..
SahngLei Xue looks down at mei and places her finge ron the trigger
Nerissa Dae buries her face into Mei's body as she rocks her to herself, unable to stop crying now as her friend dies in her arms.
SahngLei Xue: "Tell my ex family nothing"
bundy Razor looks at mei again her hand in hers then lifts her eyes at the pack her other hand pulling her shorts " stop!"
SilverLeaf Zabaleta tries to grab the gun from Leis hand, "Stop Lei!"
SahngLei Xue pulls away from silver a loud growls eminating from her throat
Birch Devin covers her face with her hands unable to say anything or move to stop the horror
bundy Razor sobs hard
SahngLei Xue ferociously roars with a thunderous snarling growl.
SilverLeaf Zabaleta: "Lei give me the gun please" holds her hand out

SahngLei Xue shakes her head "No I am doing this"
bundy Razor buries her face in mei's skirt crying hard shaking her head
Birch Devin chokes out a whispered "why... why do any more have to die?"
SilverLeaf Zabaleta stops shaking her head, "Why? Please Lei don't"
SahngLei Xue: "Me and Mei wanted to do this together now stop trying to stop me"
Nerissa Dae shakes harder the tighter she clings to Mei's body, rocking her as she keeps bawling, muttering words under her breath.
Draven Piek can feel a growl nearly rip through his throat but just stays silent
SahngLei Xue sniffs a moment before turning to see if her sniffer was right
SilverLeaf Zabaleta: "Lei there are living people here who love you, I have no idea whats going on but......don't"
SahngLei Xue scoffs :like who?"
SahngLei Xue mnnods once to draven
Birch Devin: maybe people you dont even know yet...
SilverLeaf Zabaleta: The pack, your family
SahngLei Xue: "its obvious i will have no peace here"
Birch Devin: do you really think this is the best choice? a silver bullet to the head?
SahngLei Xue: "i shall seek other shelter for my dismissal"
Birch Devin: ....
SilverLeaf Zabaleta: "NONE OF US get peace here Lei"
SahngLei Xue starts to step off
Birch Devin growls "suicide is the cowards way out
Draven Piek sees Lei and stays silent
SahngLei Xue nods once "I dont expect to be followed"
SahngLei Xue then walks off
Birch Devin shakes her head and slumps her shoulder, looking to Mei's still body a tear slips down her face
SilverLeaf Zabaleta shouts: LEI STOP
bundy Razor lifts her red swollen face from mei's skirt and buries her head in her hands " Oh my god! whats happening to us" sobs hard
Birch Devin: I may have made a mistake coming to Tox...
Birch Devin: I thought I could find a home here,..
Birch Devin: ... family.
"..Where the hell is your people!" Nerissa screams suddenly, a flair of anger shown.
Birch Devin: but the family I thought I found keeps dying, leaving..
[21:24] Nerissa Dae glareds at the ryders around her.
bundy Razor cries even hard at hearing the demon
bundy Razor " its a curse *sobs* a curse"
Birch Devin growls and snaps at the demon she doesnt know "hell if I know... the world has turned upside down... the rain keeps coming, the water is rising, and everyone has gone insane"
Nerissa Dae bows her head, her tears falling on Mei's face as she presses her own against her's, hiding under the dark wet curls.
Birch Devin nods to Mei "What happened to her? Last night we were dancing and laughing, and now my "sister" lays dead on the floor...
Birch Devin: "
Nerissa Dae quickly looks up and sees Sev. Instantly she starts crying harder, unable to control herself anymore.
Severus Seversky wraps her in his strong pale arms, gently smoothing her silky curls with one large clawed hand, dark brows creased as he looks down upon his little one
Birch Devin looks up at the new demon
bundy Razor sobs harder as the scenario of this whole week pass in frot of her eyes
Birch Devin: I cant deal with this right now...
Nerissa Dae has never cried so hard before and now she seems broken even more, pressing back against him as she refuses to let go of Mei, shaking harder in his arms as she clings to her dearest friend.
bundy Razor sobs even more reminecing the good days
Birch Devin: I dont even know any of you,... I dont understand why I even care...
Birch Devin: This whole place is just... a nightmare.
Severus Seversky sighs heavily, continuing to soothingly stroke Neri, dark brows creased as he looks down upon the body in her arms
bundy Razor runs around the garage insanely throwing away everything on the floor and screaming
Nerissa Dae cradles Mei to herself, a hand lifted to her lips she bites down and breaks the skin for a well of red to bead up. She uses it to make a cross on her friend's forehead and whispers to her a prayer in hopes that her soul will finally be in peace, fighting the urge to snatch it and hoard it so she never looses her dearest friend..But she just continues to cry now and leans down to set her own the floor carefully, brushing her hair from her face before she turns and throws herself into Sev's towering frame.
Severus Seversky shakes his white maned head slightly, powerful arms tightening about his little one as though sensing what she wished, he presses soft soothing kisses to her brow
bundy Razor paused after making a mess in the garage eyes red and tears still flowing, looks down at mei then lifts her eyes to the sky blinking
Anjia Chuzen a white mist seems to surround her crumpled and dead form, her soul as it leaps from her body as it dives into Neri's stomach, a far away word, "Goodbye..."
A sharp gasp as she feels the warmth of Mei's presense slam into her stomach, Neri's belly flaring with blue the color of her eyes as the glow brightens. She takes upon her the soul with a hysterical sobbing, able to feel her. "...My soul will never stop hurtin' my sister heart.." she whispers and slumps as she lays her hands over her stomach..
Nerissa Dae runs her fingers over Mei's lifeless cheeks before she rises slowly, face utterly pale under her makeup streaking down her face.
bundy Razor leans on the counter covering her face in her hands and sobbing
Nerissa Dae looks back and turns to the woman standing. "Make sure she's properly buried..." Her hand touches her belly, stroking it, feeling Mei's soul inside her.
bundy Razor grabs her radio
Birch Devin growls low in her throat quiet and constant

She walked away..alone yet not alone..Holding something precious within her..